I wake up remembering that it is the last day of the year – and with rueful reluctance – a birthday. For a chilling moment, comes my horoscope for the day,

Someone you used to have strong feelings for comes back into your life today, either in the real world or via the digital one. They still have a hold over you, although you won’t know for certain if you are ready to reconnect and get things stirred up again. Wait until you know more about how you feel before responding to them. Getting back in tune with other people at this point in your life could turn out to be much more complicated than you thought.

I ended an awful 2007 with a ‘tomorrow-is-another-day‘ post, getting tagged by Arzan. 2008 has been so wonderful, especially after a disastrous, heart-breaking 2007. I didn’t get into any messes, any ’emotional atyachaar’. I even cleaned up the muck on the floor of my mind. And in the second half, life only got better. In every possible way. I am so thankful.

Which is why (oddly enough), I enter 2009 with some trepedition. When you’ve got nothing left to lose, the only way you can go is up. But when you have things and people who matter, there’s also the fear of losing – balance, control and them. The past clutches its cold, skeletal fingers around my throat briefly.

I have this photograph, a reminder of a special friendship and many, many special moments. And the first thought I had when I saw it, that ‘Objects in the rear-view mirror are closer than they appear’. But I’ll just redo the tag and just use this photograph to remind me to look on, upward and ahead. Happy 2009, everyone!

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There is no fortress more secure than your past. No stronger prison, either.

11 thoughts on “Objects In The Rear-View Mirror May Be Closer Than They Appear”
  1. “I (mention) Arthur Schopenhauer’s well known fable, a story Freud liked enough to cite in his book on group psychology (and) I paraphrase the fable as follows:

    ” ‘A troop of porcupines is milling about on a cold winter’s day. In order to keep from freezing, the animals move closer together. Just as they are close enough to huddle, however, they start to poke each other with their quills. In order to stop the pain, they spread out, lose the advantage of commingling, and begin to shiver. This sends them back in search of each other, and the cycle repeats as they struggle to find a comfortable distance between entanglement and freezing.
    ‘Deborah Anna Luepnitz, Schopenhauer’s Porcupines, Basic Books, 2002, pp. 2-3.

    Radas last idea: Masala Dosa, Mexican Style!

  2. @ Cynic: I was, too. And thank you (you know what for).

    @ Rk, ligne: It wasn’t my birthday. It was the reminder of the birthday of someone I’d like to forget.

    @ Dreamcatcher: Thank you, love. Much affection.

    @ Rada: Ah, the dance of the whimsical!

    @ Jeeves, manuscrypts, Ashish, Cynic, SwB: A wonderful 2009 to all of you!!

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