So I have a new boss and a new team.
Just last month I was gloating over having completed a year and a half in my current job (that’s the longest I’ve ever stayed in any job and longer than any of my relationships). I wondered if I might have the committment-phobia strain in me that makes me get restless with the known.
But today I don’t know how to react. I’m as much a creature of habit as of spontaenity. I have a great working relationship with my boss. Well, I did. And now….I don’t know. I’m reluctant to step out of my comfort zone. I know nothing about my new manager but I’m inclined to cling to the old, familiar ways of my earlier manager, who by the way is the best boss I’ve ever had. I have a good rapport with him, have learnt plenty under his guidance and trust him completely with advice on my career growth. That’s something I’ve never been able to say about my immediate superiors….especially the last one. Trust is a precious, precious, precious thing, built over time and it has been broken more often than created with me (professionally and personally). I don’t know if a person can be lucky twice in a row. It seems improbable.
Actually it might be great. I know it will be a new dimension in my professional growth. But I’m still apprehensive as I usually am with new people. Why does no one believe me when I say that? Because I’m otherwise an extrovert? Maybe so, once I’m comfortable in the situation but I approach most new people and situations with apprehension.
Which brings me back to the cringing-with-knuckles-to-my-eyes feeling of the new working situation. 🙁 But don’t cry for me Argentina (hell…no one reads this blog anyway!!!) Maybe I’ll have a second SuperBoss.
I received a pep talk and some advice on looking forward to it since it would reduce my dependency on my earlier manager and make me more autonomous. Well, I feel good. But I still have that cringing worry. Wait and watch.